go on and on.

SO... I've been avoiding this. THISSSS.

I ate like shit last week/over the weekend. And I skipped the gym... several times. And when I did make it to the gym, it was pretty much disaster after disaster.

I feel like my arm muscles are getting softer.

For some reason I couldn't buckle down and get my training in order. I couldn't make it through ten minutes of a run, I couldn't lift without thinking "quit now, quit now, quit now," everywhere I tried it felt like my best was only half as good. As if that wasn't bad enough, I went nut balls on half of a Pizza Hut $10 big box (HALF... in one sitting! who does that?), another day I had 2 cherry cokes and a Happy Meal, another day was my favorite 7 Seas Burrito (and I licked the plate clean). That's just what I had from restaurants, I can't even keep track of my at-home indulgences.

Hot mess, to put it lightly.

I kept telling myself "something is better than nothing" but I'm not sure I believed it. I felt bad that I didn't try harder. But I knew eventually I would have to make peace with the scale and accept the consequences because that's the only way to move forward.

Bad choices happen, but I have to keep going.

210.0! Hot diggity damn I did not see that coming. TEN. TEN. TENNNNN!!! So, half a pound. Half a pound, and then ten to go. And then wonderland. I'm so very humbled.

ps - today's banner pic is a total shout-out to iTunes, without which I probably would not have been so successful in my get-healthy endeavor. no one should have to suffer the gym in silence.