on the one hand.

I haven't received a phone call regarding my blood work, which leads me to believe that my results came back normal and I should expect a letter in the mail in a week instructing me to continue at my current dose like normal. Very impersonal, bien sûr.

I don't know how I've done it. This is (according to my calculations) the end of week 6. I seriously thought I had been doing this longer... in which case: OH. MY. GOD.

It's been so easy and I feel so stupid for not figuring it out sooner. But at the same time it's been quite a journey and I don't know how I've survived this long. It's been 5 months and 4 days since my diagnosis.

Today I stepped on the scale... 275.5. After a trip to the bathroom... 274.5. I'm going to average the two and go for an even 275. :)

This is the first time since the beginning of this month that it's gone below 277, and I know that this one is going to stick.

I seriously cannot believe I'm doing this. I'm also insanely proud of myself, and even more excited to get my sexy on in the STACK of VS panties that came for me in the mail today.

!!!!!!!!

I look. SO. good.