no sleep til brooklyn.

It's been almost exactly six months since I first came to see my ophthalmologist That first week was scary and crazy because there seemed to be a rush to get me treated ASAP (although, all my physicians did their best to hide the urgency from me... AND I APPRECIATE IT). Dr Thompson was never meant to be my primary specialist, I only needed confirmation from her before heading over to see a neurologist, so we never discussed things like treatment plans or anything long-term. It was just a hustle and bustle at the time trying to get me to the right specialist.

When I last saw Dr Thompson in June she didn't say anything about a follow-up, it was the ladies at Dr Stern's office that scheduled me for a 3 month check-up which was subsequently cancelled without any explanation to me. During my last visit with Dr Stern she informed me that I should be seeing Dr Thompson at least twice a year; this happened in November, exactly 5 months since my last ophthalmology appointment.

So today I had my second visit with Dr Thompson. Due to an alarm clock issue this morning I woke up late and opted for my glasses instead of contact lenses and they took advantage of that during my exam. There was the routine background questions, then a standard vision exam, then I received wretched eye numbing drops for a pressure test. After that I had the visual field exam, and they dilated my eyes. When I finally got to speak with Dr Thompson, she came into the exam room with this giant smile on her face. The results of my visual field exam came back, and I am happy to say that my blind spots are back to normal! It is SIGNIFICANT how much it has changed in the last six months, I almost wish I had copies of the visual field chart because I'm so proud. On top of that, the swelling in my right eye is 100% gone and the left eye has just a tiny bit, but the doc said it's nothing to worry about since I initially presented with worse swelling in the left. She says she expects it to go away with a few more months on the Diamox.

In addition to this wonderful, wonderful news, she also told me that I will only need to see her once a year from now on, and if things stay the same I won't have to do the visual field exam or have my eyes dilated. She said it was incredible how fast my eyes recovered and she wished me a Merry Christmas.

Merry fucking Christmas, indeed.



Yesterday was boyfriend's birthday, and coincidentally also my day off from work. I thought I would have the day to myself getting his dinner prepared and have time left to clean, study, groom, and exercise. Well, he played hookey which completely derailed my plans and I accomplished absolutely nothing from my to-do list.

I didn't workout yesterday, I didn't study, I didn't clean, hell... I didn't even shower. And the nice ass dinner I had planned... SCRAPPED. Boyfriend decided he wanted breaded shrimp which I haven't made in two years because it's a pain in the ass and because I really don't approve of having fried foods like, ever.

And today, I'm scrambling with the few hours I have before work to get shit done and there's no time to eat properly or shower or workout. It's times like this I kinda wish I was single.

Which begs the question... how do married people do it? I'd like to think of myself as an individual while simultaneously being one half of this romantic entity, but these ideas can be in conflict at times. So how does the individual-me tell the 1/2-me (and by extension, 1/2-boyfriend) that individual's needs are important too?

I'm having a time management issue that's being complicated by a prioritizing issue. FML.