they're all wasted.

Happy half birthday to me
Happy half birthday to me
Happy half birthday to meeeeee
Happy half birthday to me.

The scale gods gave me the most wonderful half birthday gift this morning: 244.0! Sometimes, it doesn't feel like very much, and then times like today it feels like the whole world has shifted. Indeed, it has.

I had almost forgotten what it was like to have the scale consistently show numbers in decreasing order. I've had enough of this up-and-down shit. In reality, it's my own fault, but I can't help feeling angry and resentful about it. But enough of my self pity, I have a plan!

Somehow, I let my exercise strategy slip away from me. I got comfortable, I gave into Netflix, and I forgot that pain is my friend. NO MORE, MOTHERFUCKERS, NO MORE. Going back to the basics means hitting the 21-day strategy hard. Coincidentally, the timing is perfect.

I have successfully completed runs on Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. Today is Tuesday. My appointment with Dr Stern is scheduled for Thursday May 3... which happens to be the 21st day counting from last Friday which means that if I run every single day from now until the day of my appointment, I will have completed 21 runs. In 16 days' time, I will have completed 21 successful runs, and, more importantly, I will have re-taught myself to love exercising.

Because honestly, I can't keep my mind off running.