it feels so good.

I'd like to take this opportunity to amend my post from yesterday regarding my weight. I was actually at 241.5, but I had neglected to take my meds in a timely manner and that caused me to retain excess water. Sometimes it feels kind of cheap "losing" a pound by pissing it out, but I like to think of it as the equivalent of holding a liter of water while standing on the scale. If it doesn't need to be on/in my body, it has no business being reflected on the scale. 'Nough said.

Next up: what the hell is with the attack on carbs and sugar? I have a friend who is currently on a 21-day no-carb diet and let me tell you... if this shit continues, we won't be friends anymore. Firstly, who decided that carbs were bad? And secondly, how is it that a person who holds an MBA doesn't recognize that certain fruits are loaded with carbohydrates and that carbs are necessary to function?

And sugar too. For good measure, let's throw that in there. I read this thing on the HuffPost about a lady who lost 70 pounds and her reasoning for her success was "I cut out the sugar." Umm... why? Were you eating bucketfuls each day? Just shoveling it in your mouth like the gastric version of Lindsay Lohan in a mountain of coke? How much sugar could people possibly be eating to justify having to rely on no-calorie sweeteners?

I'm not a purist, but I don't believe that something man-made that never rots is a healthier alternative to something so natural and pure as sugar. Granted, there are very, very few occasions in which I have to add raw sugar to anything. But if I'm making a cup of tea and honey isn't an option, you bet your ass I'm going to spring for the 10 calories of sugar rather than taking the aspartame route.

You know what I'd like to see removed from public consciousness? Fruit juice. I read somewhere that fruit juice is concentrated fruit sugar that has been stripped of all the good, natural, healthy fiber that fruit provides. I've never heard such a violent (and accurate) description of fruit juice before. Naturally, I had always regarded fruit juice as a "good" thing, but ever since I read that I definitely see juice differently.

I'm holding fast to the notion that I'm not a on a diet. BECAUSE I'M NOT ON A FUCKIN DIET, OKAY? I get a little defensive because there's such a stigma about food and weight loss. Like, I couldn't possible even THINK about indulging myself because I'm still overweight. Being happy and eating desserts is for skinny people only, apparently. But fuck that noise, I'm not on a diet. I have a roll of cookie dough in my fridge right at this very moment, I've consumed at least 30% of it in the last week. And last night for dinner... I made a sandwich with TWO pieces of bread, ranch dressing, pepperjack cheese, and half an avocado (there was turkey and arugula too). And then I ate three Doritos chips. The point to this is that diets make it impossible for people to function like normal members of society. I can go out to eat, have drinks with friends, attack a piece of cheesecake, etc., and it's not going to "ruin my diet." Also, I didn't run yesterday, because studying for my test, going to class, doing homework, feeding myself, and getting to sleep before work were more pressing priorities.

AND I DON'T REGRET IT.