you'll wanna look just like me.

I'm loving the Vibrams. The truth is, I spend so much time barefoot that making the change to "barefoot" shoes seems a little... stupid. But it works for me! The soreness from the pinky toe stretch that I was experiencing at first is largely gone (yay!).

Yesterday I tried to run but I only got five minutes in when I just had to quit. Two things happened:
1. The slight pain in my right mid-inner thigh has gone from a fleeting pinch to full fledged soreness. That's a lie, I'm in excruciating pain. Even walking sucks. The remedy: no running this week.
2. I was in so much pain while running that I went straight from a fast jog to a complete stop. My blood pressure spiked and I felt really terrible for several minutes. Note to self - don't do that again.

I'm exhausted all the time, and these bursts of hormones are doing nothing to help my condition. I'm so frustrated that I'm exhausted, and I feel my body fighting against me. I try to do so well with food and then I feel an unavoidable rush that undoes all my best efforts. I feel bloated and insane (like, seriously insane) but time seems to go by soooooo fucking slow. I just want to punch something.

I just want to punch something. ALL THE TIME.


The scale read 259.0 last night, but I refuse to believe that since I had just eaten, I hadn't pooped all day, I'm bloated, and life sucks this week. Bah humbug.